Annelisa

Why repair fails even when partners are “trying.” After infidelity, many couples arrive at repair with genuine effort. There may be remorse. Transparency. Long conversations. Promises. Even sincere care. And still . . . something doesn’t move. The betrayed partner may feel unheard despite hours, sometimes years, of conversation and explanation. The unfaithful partner may feel endlessly scrutinized, never quite forgiven. Both may be exhausted, confused, and quietly afraid tha

In the previous series, we stayed close to infidelity itself. We looked at how affairs are rarely impulsive acts of betrayal and more often adaptations to unconscious need, disowned longing, or internal states that felt impossible to bring into partnership. We explored infidelity not as a character flaw, but as a reaction . . . a costly one . . . to something that could not be held primarily inside the individual, and thus within the relationship as it existed. But understan

By Wolf Larsen Spotify https://open.spotify.com/track/4iFoLIJGlMzrKRHkmEb3Co?si=cc4f2a22c4ac4779 YouTube https://youtu.be/Qv4tNwsb_rc?si=yKWz1uug0p8LIYBv Lyrics: What if I'm wrong? What if I've lied? What if I've dragged you here to my own dark night? And what if I know? What if I see There is a crack run right down the front of me? What if they're right? What if we're wrong? What if I lured you here with a siren song? But if I be wrong, if I be right Let me be here, with you

I asked Love once why it hid behind another's face. Love smiled and poured some wine into a cracked cup. “Because you were afraid to drink from your own thirst," it said. "You sip in shadows, seek warmth from borrowed fires, hide your broken heart so the night will not abandon you . . ." Listen beloved: Every lie is a prayer spoken backward. Every secret is a hand over the mouth of God. The body cannot live in two rooms at once. But there is no punishment here, only the cost

Lying, Fragmentation, and the Collapse of Self-Trust By the time infidelity is revealed or discovered, the most devastating damage has often already occurred. Not in the bedroom, but in the psyche, in the field of knowing. What shatters people is rarely the sex alone. It is the realization that reality itself has been unstable, and that one’s own perceptions were quietly undermined in the process. Infidelity is traumatic not because it breaks a rule, but because it breaks epi

Need, Deception, and Silence When infidelity is reduced to impulse or entitlement, we miss what is actually happening. People rarely betray simply because opportunity appears. More often, betrayal emerges where something vital has become unlivable or inexpressible inside the primary bond . . . and even more unbearable to name to one's self. Affairs are not usually about wanting more . They are about wanting to have needs without consequence . Beyond the Gendered Myths Cultura

Can Infidelity Exist Without Monogamy? One of the most common assumptions about non-monogamy is that it eliminates betrayal. If exclusivity is no longer the organizing principle, then . . . so the logic goes . . . infidelity should no longer apply. And yet, clients in open marriages and polyamorous relationships report profound experiences of betrayal every day, in my practice. This paradox exposes something essential: infidelity is not defined by the presence or absence of m

For most of modern history, infidelity has been narrowly defined: sex with someone who is not your spouse. More precisely, genital sex . More precisely still, penetrative sex. This definition made a certain kind of sense when marriage was primarily an economic arrangement, when lineage and inheritance mattered more than emotional fulfillment, and when sex itself was tethered tightly to reproduction. But we no longer live in that world. Today, most people do not need a partne

"The way we live with need quietly shapes every aspect of the human experience." Annelisa MacBean We are crossing a threshold right now, not marked by fireworks or resolutions, but by fatigue, grief, and a quiet, persistent question moving through the human field: How do we live now . . . honestly, responsibly, and together . . . without hardening or disappearing? This is not only a personal question. It is not only political. It is not only spiritual. It is all

May this season meet you kindly. May the truth you carry soften at its edges when it reaches your lips. May your heart feel held by something larger than circumstance, a quiet knowing that you are allowed to be exactly as you are. May the children in your life feel the steadiness of your presence, and may you feel your own steadiness, too. May whatever is unraveling do so with grace, so that what wants to be born in you can finally breathe. May you move through these days wi

Navigating the Holidays with Honesty, Warmth, and Care Holidays have a way of amplifying whatever is most alive in us. Joy feels brighter. Loneliness gets sharper. Conflict rings louder. And when a relationship is in a fragile place, or quietly approaching its end, the pressure to perform in a warm and festive manner can feel almost unbearable. Every year I meet with couples and families trying to hold themselves together during December. They try to smile politely at dinner

Wrestling with, and Surrendering . . . to Need When someone says “I’m done,” they usually believe they’re finished with their marriage . . . that the relationship has run its course. Their partner can't give them what they want (the partner is the problem). But more often, something else is collapsing: the lifelong project of trying to control their experience of need. The adultified child has reached the end of their endurance. Not because they are with the wrong partner

Why Dependency Feels Dangerous to the Adultified Child One of the most painful illusions in adult relationships is the idea that “I can finally be myself once I leave this marriage or this relationship.” For the adultified child, this fantasy can feel like oxygen. Not because they don’t love their partner. Not because the relationship is wrong. But because dependency itself awakens a kind of ancient terror that most of us . . . least of all the adultified child . . . knows h

Why the Adultified Child Doubles Down, Just When Things are Getting Good When the adultified child begins to heal, it can look a lot like falling apart. What we often call progress in partnership; feeling more, seeing more, being seen more, daring to soften and receive . . . can feel like danger to the adultified child who has spent a lifetime surviving by being in charge, independent and invulnerable. It’s at the very threshold of real transformation that the adultified chi

Today, let every small thing be enough. The breath, the cup, the glance . . . each one, a secret blessing. Let gratitude be your feast . . . a table set with everything you already have. Let thankfulness be a gentle alchemy, turning the ordinary into quiet miracles. Dear Ones, Thank you for the ways you show up, inquire, and allow transformation to unfold . . . for the quiet moments of insight and your brave hearts, so willing to grow. With sincere appreciation, I wish you a